Day 10--Letter to Someone I Don't Talk to As Much As I'd Like. ♥

"So I pray that You hold my hand, as I follow Your footprints in the sand... "--Beanie Siegel. {Prayer}.
Dear Father,
I've always been a part of church...for as long as I can remember. Until I came to college... I have a fairly small church family, but I'm so comfortable and at-home around them, that it feels weird to think about going to a church here in the town where I attend school. I know, I probably shouldn't feel this way, right? I mean, we're all Your children...but still. I know that You're always with me, through the good and the bad...I just find myself falling into that pattern of only talking to You when the bad comes along. My wish is that I'll find balance in life, the strength to talk to You whenever...whether it's thanking You for the blessings You always provide {whether I behave deservingly or not} or seeking Your guidance when the road gets rough {which it sometimes does}. I want to further our relationship, because whether I'm physically in a church or not, I've always known, accepted, appreciated, and acknowledged the role You've played in my life. I'm eternally grateful, because I can honestly say that when I felt like NO ONE on this planet Earth was on my side, You were there. In the darkest hours of my life, I've felt Your presence, and it never man/woman can compete with that. With all that I've been through in the last 22 years, having someone constant and dependable has gotten me through days when I didn't think I'd see the next one. It's one thing to sit in a building and listen to scriptures and songs for a few hours once a week. Don't get me wrong, I feel the most serene and safe when I'm in Your house. But I believe that when we're outside those walls, that's when we're tested on our belief...our faith in You. Our relationship isn't for show. It's not forced...It's something that's ingrained in my soul and heart, and always has been. I'm not anywhere close to Perfection...and You cherish me regardless. What more could one ask for? Though my location has changed, Your presence hasn't. Just as You promised. So this letter is to You. It's the least I can do. 
In Your Name,
Amen. ♥

1 comment:

  1. I can so relate. I just don't feel comfortable going to church near my school. I'm so close to my church family at home that its hard to open up to another church family! #sigh...
    A personal relationship, though, gets me through :)



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